Don’t Rock the Boat…

How many times in life have you gone along with something simply because you did not want to rock the boat?

(Fall Fair – September 2007)

I am but one person in a vast expanse of many. My voice is quiet and many times gets lost when given among many. There are times when I wonder if when that voice is quiet, once and for all, if it will be remembered, missed. I have to trust that it will. It is a sad thought to think otherwise.

I wrote a post in this blog yesterday and it rested here all day yesterday and through the night and into this morning. I had so many kind and very personal comments from you my blog friends – I won’t mention any names  (you know who you are). Each and every comment touched me deep inside – in a way in which even I am having a hard time understanding the depth of emotion that they provoked. I can only say Thank you!

Because of the very personal nature of the post and of the comments that followed – I have decided to take the post and comments that followed down off of this blog, and have saved all of them in my heart as well as in a file on my computer. I think for now it is better that way. Perhaps one day I will be able to let that post stand among the others – today I cannot.

For those of you reading this post that do not know what the heck I am talking about, and have the burning desire to know – let me know – perhaps I will share – perhaps not. No promises either way.

For those of you who did read the post and comment – thank you – your words will carry me through!

For those of you who read, but did not know what to say, so left quietly without saying a word – it is ok – I did not expect you to comment – thank you for reading the post – and thank you for your silent thoughts. Sometimes no words are needed.

So now I have explained the missing post – let’s move forward shall we!

We are still playing the baby waiting game. So fun, the excitement knowing it could happen at any time, the anticipation like a little child waiting to open a gift – I am holding on to each moment as the gift they truly are.

Tomorrow we are having family over for a potluck dinner. It will be nice! Each moment we can all be together is a blessing in itself.

I think – one day soon – I will rock that boat, just for fun!

Published in: on December 31, 2007 at 8:09 am  Comments (6)  

The passing of another year….

33 years ago today my eldest daughter was born – it is hard to believe that so many years have passed since that day when my life took on a whole new meaning. What a journey it has been, and one that I would take again in a heartbeat!

Happy Birthday Teriena, I hope you have a wonderful day!

All is quiet on the home front, with all of us enjoying the quiet and calm the last few days have had to offer as we wait for the days yet to come.

I cannot say that I am sad to see this year coming to an end. It has been a rough year for us as a family – one that many lessons were learned – not that lessons are a bad thing, but sometimes you just want to yell Stop – enough already.

I know in my heart that the year to come will also offer us many lessons – many changes –  some which we all look forward to, others that we wish we could put off for just a little bit longer – but know they will come, and that we will deal with them as we have done with all the ones of the past. Ready or not, Like it or not – life happens, changes happen, and we take the moments of each and try to make sense of them the best we can.


There are still a few days of this year left, so I am going to try to make the most of each one of them. Not letting the troubles of the months past take away from the days to come. I plan to close the chapter of this year gently!

Published in: on December 29, 2007 at 6:42 am  Comments (7)  

Merry Christmas…


Published in: on December 25, 2007 at 7:01 am  Comments (7)  

Quick Update…

As things calm and slow down in my world, I would like to take a moment to wish all of you who read my blog a Merry Christmas – and for those of you who do not celebrate Christmas I wish for you peaceful days to come.


I know that in a very short time, I will be coming in here to let you all know that baby Pickles has been born – I am looking forward to that day!

We are all set now for Christmas. The house is decorated and cleaned. The groceries are bought and put away. Now we will sit back and enjoy the moments that are presented to us over the next little while.

For now my mom is holding her own, and it looks like she will be able to enjoy the holidays with us, which is a big relief to everyone, including her I am sure!

Work is going well, and the rebuild just about done. Soon I will be able to share with you what has been keeping me so busy these past few months.

So with that said – My very best to each and everyone of you!

Published in: on December 24, 2007 at 7:20 am  Comments (8)  

The promise of motherhood…

I did a photo shoot with Sharlyn on Saturday – we decided that there was no point in waiting for more snow, as according to the weather man there is none in the forcast anytime soon. The idea was great, but not ment to be (unless things in the weather department change fairly quickly) however the pictures we did get turned out pretty nice, even without the snow.


I love the look on her face in this one. So peaceful, and full of hope – the promise of motherhood just around the corner.

Published in: on December 24, 2007 at 6:11 am  Comments (4)  


I am still hopeful that we will get another dose of snow before baby Pickles shows up, but so far it is not looking promising. I just might have to have Sharlyn go outside and sit in a mudpuddle instead for her last big pregnancy photo shoot!


I am actually considering re-creating some snow out of bags of that while fill stuff and using that as a back drop. Cheating yes, but it could work. But no matter what we need to do that photo shoot soon, as it won’t be long now before baby Pickles is born.

Sharlyn had another ultra sound yesterday, and baby Pickles is now heading in the right direction, but there sure is not a lot of room in there! She will go and see her doctor today, and find out what is what.

So I have been crazy busy with work projects the last little while, as well as trying to get ready for Christmas. My mom ended up back in the hospital this past Sunday, but she is out again now. They released her yesterday, so hopefully she will remain well through the holiday season!

I’m afraid that this past week my blog has taken a back burner to all that is going on here, which really is a shame as it is the one thing that seems to offer me some peace during these crazy times.

Today I am going to steal an hour out of my day, and sit down and start making some lists – to get myself back on track. I have a lot to do, and things are getting to the point where everything is becoming a blur – time to focus again!

Time to take my own advice and B-R-E-A-T-H…

Published in: on December 21, 2007 at 6:23 am  Comments (10)